the tired mind wanders about
i'm very tired now since i cleared about one-quarter of my house today. and when i'm tired my mind starts to wander about and think abt many things.
okay, i'm upset but dunno why.... just suddenly feel that after doing so much, after helping out so much, you are forgotten. i know i shouldn't be feeling this way since i should be used to it.... it's okay to be an unsung hero sometimes... but i just feel like ranting everything out here. so ppl, after reading this, just erase it from ur memory. it's not really a big matter anyway.
i hate being a shadow to someone else. i've had enough and i'm freaking really sick of it. can't people treat me as if i'm a unique me? i am not someone who owes my living to a particular person or wad... i dun gif a damn about wad 有他才有我 kind of thing.
i think this holiday is a sucky one... or rather it would be a sucky one.
firstly i'm like regretting joining a particular committee. i so dunno why i got psycho-ed to join when i was like already 下定决心 not to join. damn it... big lesson learnt.
secondly, the relationships people share amonst each other, it's becoming too much for me to handle. kinship, friendship, or even one that u have towards someone really dear to u... (i'm not hinting anything here). i shan't elaborate much since i think it's becoming abit more of a private issue. but all i can say is that 人心难测. they dun give a hoot about how you feel once they have accomplished their motive. nvm i dunno wad i'm saying anymore either, so dun worry if u're confused by wad i'm typing. anyway this oso somehow leads back to the 'being someone else's shadow' issue. somehow...
thirdly, i had to worry for my first semester's result cos of an sms tat i received. it definitely has to be from someone who has first hand info abt our results obviously, and not any tom, dick or harry...
one-quarter of my holiday is almost over.... wad have i achieved? (the standard answer most ppl would give is 'nothing' haha...) ok let's see... i've achieved my well deserved break so far, by having gone to 2 chalets. haha...
eh somehow i think this entry is a garbage entry haha.. i oso dunno i've been typing, i realised.... but nvm, let's not waste the effort of my subconcious mind lol.... just publish. haha...
okay, i'm upset but dunno why.... just suddenly feel that after doing so much, after helping out so much, you are forgotten. i know i shouldn't be feeling this way since i should be used to it.... it's okay to be an unsung hero sometimes... but i just feel like ranting everything out here. so ppl, after reading this, just erase it from ur memory. it's not really a big matter anyway.
i hate being a shadow to someone else. i've had enough and i'm freaking really sick of it. can't people treat me as if i'm a unique me? i am not someone who owes my living to a particular person or wad... i dun gif a damn about wad 有他才有我 kind of thing.
i think this holiday is a sucky one... or rather it would be a sucky one.
firstly i'm like regretting joining a particular committee. i so dunno why i got psycho-ed to join when i was like already 下定决心 not to join. damn it... big lesson learnt.
secondly, the relationships people share amonst each other, it's becoming too much for me to handle. kinship, friendship, or even one that u have towards someone really dear to u... (i'm not hinting anything here). i shan't elaborate much since i think it's becoming abit more of a private issue. but all i can say is that 人心难测. they dun give a hoot about how you feel once they have accomplished their motive. nvm i dunno wad i'm saying anymore either, so dun worry if u're confused by wad i'm typing. anyway this oso somehow leads back to the 'being someone else's shadow' issue. somehow...
thirdly, i had to worry for my first semester's result cos of an sms tat i received. it definitely has to be from someone who has first hand info abt our results obviously, and not any tom, dick or harry...
one-quarter of my holiday is almost over.... wad have i achieved? (the standard answer most ppl would give is 'nothing' haha...) ok let's see... i've achieved my well deserved break so far, by having gone to 2 chalets. haha...
eh somehow i think this entry is a garbage entry haha.. i oso dunno i've been typing, i realised.... but nvm, let's not waste the effort of my subconcious mind lol.... just publish. haha...
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