at 9.11 am,

my whole world seemd to crash down on me.

did a good fren 'pass away' just like tat?

i hate to see things this way.

mebbe i shld stick to the decisions made this time.

it hurts big time....

but i guess i'm at fault too.

tat's what the Progress Package is for....

the fare hike in transportation fees....

i miss FOC where meals are settled for me everyday by auntie xiangying HAHA.

now i have to think of what to eat for my meals on my own.

troublesome.

stoning here in lab....

boss and project officer enjoying themselves in taiwan...

so many stuffs left behind for us to do, an untidy lab to clear up... omg...

hangover since this morning... head still hurts.

waiting for time to pass quickly.

*poof*

Well Done, Estados 2006

SBS Freshmen Orientation Camp, Estados 2006, has ended finally. Time passed so quickly, even on the first day of the camp, I was telling myself that time will pass very quickly and it will be Friday in no time.

anyway, this camp has taught me alot of things and has also made me see through some people.

besides that, i wanna say a big thank you to my logistics subcommers, zhen wei, zhisheng, nicholas and weng kit! you guys were great and yeah, Logistics was one of the two best portfolios tat even both vice-chairs didn't have to worry about for the whole camp. Well done loggies...

And also to Maidu, the OG i'm attached to, you guys were great!! your undying spirit has made me and the other Maidu seniors proud of you all. Although i seldom get to enjoy the fun with you guy, it was still fun knowing you all. At least i got to eat supper with you guys after SP Night. haha. See you guys in the next OG outing.

To my fellow maincommers and all the seniors who played a part in the camp, thanks everyone for making this camp a possible one and also an enjoyable one. Cheers to Estados 2006!

check this tutor out

wow, check out GP tutor from RJC man.... Ms Ho Por Fun, her name? haha...

i love the part where she went "you're trying to cover up your insolence, your defiance, your laziness, your apathy, your lethargy and your bad attitude." super zai.

Pre-camp

alright.... today's the pre-camp for SBS FOC 2006, Estados.

hmmm, the turnout i think was quite okay lah... and i finally know i'm senior attached for which OG... Maidu. Hmm actually somebody told me my group before during seniors camp, but i wasn't concentrating i think haha...

and there's soooo little guys wahaha.. girls aplenty lei seriously. and there's this girl in my OG who looks like my lab technician? omg. haha...

hmm it's quite fun being a senior in foc... can sabotage freshies when playing games that require a certain number of people, Pirates of the Caribbean, it's called (hunter, tree, squirrel game equivalent). but then, time passes so quickly. one year is gone just like that. i'm senior attached now? wah...

had to leave early to watch Pirates of the Caribbean at GV Tiong Bahru with my family. so sad can't get to learn the mass dance with everyone else and had to leave early so missed out some fun. but it's good too, at least i can say i watched the show already! haha. the show was great i shld say. there's this bad guy in the show, wad's his name? davy jones or smth like tat? that freak of the freaks lah, he made this funny noise with his lips, and i actually tried to imitate him doing that on the spot! haha.

went to No Signboard Seafood for my grandmother's bday dinner. she simply loves the seafood there man such that, we go only there to celebrate her bday every year haha. and then the fireworks from the national stadium just went off at ard 8pm. think it's the NDP show for the pri 5 kids. quite beautiful, those fireworks. haiz. and afterwhich, we went for yummy durians at this durian stall just opposite Aljunied MRT Station! wow, the durians were reallllly yummy.

anyway i'm suppppppper slpy rite now. i almost couldn't get out of bed this morning, slept on the train all the way, still quite okay durin pre-camp, fell aslp at the seafood restaurant while waiting for the rest of my family to turn up. yawnzzz.. it's a slpy saturday today. Haha.

living life for... that chocolate fondant desert @ Pierside Kitchen *drools*

there are reasons to drink.

some are obvious. others are personal. maybe you had succeeded in doing something. maybe you are feeling down. maybe it is your birthday, maybe there's just a bottle of red wine just lying there somewhere in your house.

maybe you are just searching for that bottle of red wine that your uncle opened to let you try once and you liked it so much but forgot the name of that bottle of red wine, so you just buy a few to try your luck.

or maybe simply because...

i think i had a drink too much... my world is spinning....

Got this Picture of the Day from a friend's blog.

The Italians sooo happy that they started to make out on the pitch~ Neuville: "Do it at home lah~! #*@%&..."

The Lake House

yepz... The Lake House is finally categorized under "Coming Soon" haha, opening 27th July. This is one of the movies that I've been waiting for for quite some time already.

But then, come to think about it, I've a good record of saying that I wanna watch certain movies, just to discover in the end that after the show has ended its run, I still haven watched it yet. So I'm not having high hopes on this one either.

I've seen the trailer quite some time ago... And I guess this show wouldn't be a bad one. And it's starring Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock... so.... yeah shld be a nice show.

Anyway, I just came back from Maju Camp. Wah the journey back on bus 154 is freakingly long... i was like "are we reaching...?" , "am i there yet?" to myself on the bus. Went there for my IPPT and haiz, I got only a Silver thanks to my2.4km run... arghhhzzz whyyyyyyyy? i was so close.... grrr.

The Great Use Of Life Is To Spend It For Something That Outlasts It

Hmm, NTU Humanitarian Affairs is organising a Relief Effort under the mandate of the UN. Location? Inner Mongolia. When? 30 July to 4 Aug.

I'm quite interested to go for it... but... firstly the timeframe of this activity doesn't allow me to do so.

And secondly, S$950 is the amount I have to fork out for my passage there. Sighz, it's not that I find it painful to pay for the trip there, but I don't even have this amount in my bank account now.

But for those who can afford and is free during this timeframe, go on my behalf pls haha... Kidding... But well, it'd be quite a good learning experience too if I could actually go. Next time maybe :)

i'm feeling quite tired still, haven't recovered from the fatigue.
i'm feeling kinda melancholic, on this side of the island.
something is just not right, within me... i guess.

everyone's happy, nicely settled down with their own businesses.
my heart seems healthy, beating away as i'm typing on.
but it's actually lost, unable to find its way back on track.
it seems to be ruptured and rippling out like streamers.
my mind is still in a state of confusion, due to the fatigue?
or has it always been in this state?
or could it be that.... it's not confused at all.




please do bury me, deep underneath... a couple of pillows will do.
if only problems could be solved this way.






happiness is the art of good pretence.
tell me it's true, i can't convince myself.